Father's Day

A  father is a son''s first HERO; a daughter's first LOVE...

 Today is a very special day to all the dads in the world. Most children are waiting for this day to surprise their dads, to show them how much they appreciate and love all the things their dads have sacrificed for them, to show them how lucky they are to have such dad and to have the best  dads in the world. And surely, Fathers deserve everything their children could give. This day is for the fathers who did their best to be loving dads.

I  used to be like them. So ecstatic to spend this day with my father. but now, I'm dreading this day. To be honest, I feel like this is just another day. I'm one of those people who are unfortunate to have loving dads.
My Father is the biggest asshole you could ever meet. He used to be my ideal dad, but, when I was 13, he suddenly changed.

My father changed when he had a mistress. A really ugly mistress with a big ugly nose. I hate him so much. You wanna know why? Because the bitch lives right after our house. It is humiliating as hell. We thought they were just friends. But one day, we saw our dad's phone with really disgusting  messages from the bitch. My dad has no job. How dare him do that to us? And he steals money from mom's bag. We were always blamed before for what he was doing, then one day, Mom saw him getting money in her bag. He really is a fucked up father.

I hate him so much for hurting my mom. He humiliates mom in public and in private. He once called my mom a whore and physically hurt her. It really took a lot of self restrain to not go there and kill him myself. My mom is the best mom. I could see it and feel it. Tho mom is really a martyr. We were telling her to kick him out of our house but she told us that she wanted us to not have a broken family. Really? Id rather live without that asshole. Mom obviously loves him no matter what he does. 

You know what's the most painful thing you could ever see? It's when you see your mom crying and you're just there looking at her, so helpless that you cant do anything but  to cry with her. If I could only take all the pain in her eyes, i would move heaven and hell just to take all those pain from her eyes. When your dad is same with mine, you better be a good child and show you mom that even though she has the worst husband, she is Blessed with the best children. 

I loved my dad. I Loved him so much . I prayed to God for 2 years to give back my old dad. I still could remember  those days that you could see in his eyes how much he adored and loved us.He was my first love, my first hero.  I was so desperate to feel those things again. But I realized there was nothing i could do anymore. Sometimes i wanna cry when I see my classmates' dads. And I was just there looking at them, dreaming that it was my dad and me.

My family is far worse than what you are imagining right now. My dad's depth of depravity is something i wouldn't want anyone to feel nor experience.

I tell you this,

I'D RATHER HAVE A DEAD DAD KNOWING HE LOVED US UNTIL HIS LAST BREATH THAN HAVING A DAD WHO DOESN'T EVEN GIVE A F*CK ABOUT US.

If you have a loving dad, be thankful. Because there are children somewhere who do not have their dads and there are children somewhere who would give everything just to have your dad. And I am one of them. 

Happy Father's Day to all of you! Love your dad to the moon and back.

-Mar <3
 

First Day as College Student!!

My first day as college student is already over!

Wow! I feel like I'm really on the process of achieving my dream to be a Certified Public Accountant. Yup, you're right, I'm a BSA student.


The day before today, I was feeling nothing at all. I wasn't excited nor nervous that's why I was a lil' bit confused because I didn't expect to feel so happy and excited after this day.

I already know half of my classmates so the thrill of meeting new people and being lonely on the first day/first week are some of the things I'm not gonna experience. Tho I'm really thankful to be with my friends as we face this new change in our lives.

We only had three subjects for today, and mostly just gave their rules and regulations and the requirements needed for their subject. It was kindda boring at first but when we started discussing Fundamental Accounting, my mind suddenly woke up from its sleep. And yes, we already started discussing. I know it sucked. And it was raining. I was so sleepy because it was cold and I just had a two-hour sleep. Bad combination, I swear.

To be honest, I was still skeptical on what course to take. Really, I didn't know what my real passion was until today. As we started discussing Fundamental Accounting, I felt like all the turmoils and all the doubts in my mind were suddenly gone. It was like a puzzle solved.

And by then, I realized that Accountancy is the right course for me.
What I'm feeling  is hard to explain like no words could really express that feeling.
It's like you just know deep in your mind and your heart that this is what fate has prepared for you.

I think, everyone must have this feeling for their course. No matter what happens, you should take the course that you want and feel. And if you are skeptical or not sure with what to take, choose the one that is pretty close to your interests and hobbies. And if that still wont work, choose one and give it a try. I know that that would be a waste of time and money, but, for me, it's like finding yourself; You won't find without trying.

You should keep this in my mind, My friend:

Money is not the basis of success. 

Do not choose a course because you know that it is in-demand and with high salary. It's like choosing lemon over chocolate.

College is the last step to success. This is a big decision in your life that you must seriously consider. Life is not easy.

 Your future depends on you.


That's all for my first day! I wish you enjoyed your first day too. ^^

-Mar <3