Father's Day

A  father is a son''s first HERO; a daughter's first LOVE...

 Today is a very special day to all the dads in the world. Most children are waiting for this day to surprise their dads, to show them how much they appreciate and love all the things their dads have sacrificed for them, to show them how lucky they are to have such dad and to have the best  dads in the world. And surely, Fathers deserve everything their children could give. This day is for the fathers who did their best to be loving dads.

I  used to be like them. So ecstatic to spend this day with my father. but now, I'm dreading this day. To be honest, I feel like this is just another day. I'm one of those people who are unfortunate to have loving dads.
My Father is the biggest asshole you could ever meet. He used to be my ideal dad, but, when I was 13, he suddenly changed.

My father changed when he had a mistress. A really ugly mistress with a big ugly nose. I hate him so much. You wanna know why? Because the bitch lives right after our house. It is humiliating as hell. We thought they were just friends. But one day, we saw our dad's phone with really disgusting  messages from the bitch. My dad has no job. How dare him do that to us? And he steals money from mom's bag. We were always blamed before for what he was doing, then one day, Mom saw him getting money in her bag. He really is a fucked up father.

I hate him so much for hurting my mom. He humiliates mom in public and in private. He once called my mom a whore and physically hurt her. It really took a lot of self restrain to not go there and kill him myself. My mom is the best mom. I could see it and feel it. Tho mom is really a martyr. We were telling her to kick him out of our house but she told us that she wanted us to not have a broken family. Really? Id rather live without that asshole. Mom obviously loves him no matter what he does. 

You know what's the most painful thing you could ever see? It's when you see your mom crying and you're just there looking at her, so helpless that you cant do anything but  to cry with her. If I could only take all the pain in her eyes, i would move heaven and hell just to take all those pain from her eyes. When your dad is same with mine, you better be a good child and show you mom that even though she has the worst husband, she is Blessed with the best children. 

I loved my dad. I Loved him so much . I prayed to God for 2 years to give back my old dad. I still could remember  those days that you could see in his eyes how much he adored and loved us.He was my first love, my first hero.  I was so desperate to feel those things again. But I realized there was nothing i could do anymore. Sometimes i wanna cry when I see my classmates' dads. And I was just there looking at them, dreaming that it was my dad and me.

My family is far worse than what you are imagining right now. My dad's depth of depravity is something i wouldn't want anyone to feel nor experience.

I tell you this,

I'D RATHER HAVE A DEAD DAD KNOWING HE LOVED US UNTIL HIS LAST BREATH THAN HAVING A DAD WHO DOESN'T EVEN GIVE A F*CK ABOUT US.

If you have a loving dad, be thankful. Because there are children somewhere who do not have their dads and there are children somewhere who would give everything just to have your dad. And I am one of them. 

Happy Father's Day to all of you! Love your dad to the moon and back.

-Mar <3